6 Weeks and some change

I don't really know what to think about being pregnant again sometimes. I am so excited one minute but then it's almost like I forget about it... but only fleeting. It's just so different than being pregnant with Nolan.

First of all, the worry seems to be far less. I know now that I can produce a healthy child as evidenced by my almost 2 year old running around screaming and being silly. I don't find myself worrying over every little twinge (although there still is some worry, believe it). I don't google too much about miscarriages...

Secondly, the time is going much faster. Even though it's been less than 3 weeks that I've found out that I'm pregnant - it doesn't feel like the days have drug on. Weirdly though, I do feel like I've been pregnant far longer... probably because technically I'm around 6 weeks now.

What I really enjoy so far is when I take an HPT I see that test line come up fast! Like, as soon as the stick gets wet it's there, that little pink line... which by this time has become far darker than the control line. Maybe even twice as dark! That's a comforting sign. I didn't take the progression pictures of my wondfo HPTs because... well I wasn't as happy with them in the beginning. When I thought that the lines were getting lighter and that I was having a chemical pregnancy I was super bummed out. Eventually I just threw them away.

Now I keep one or two used tests in my drawer (a FRER with the nice urine cap so my stuff doesn't get all duurrrty).

I have 15 days until my ultrasound. I'm so excited and yet right now as I type I'm feeling a little nervous.

Although I've been reassured by some light symptoms including exhaustion and food aversions. I seem to be craving sweet things which the old wives would say that means I'm having a girl which would be SO exciting!

I kind of hope that I'm having a girl to be honest. I don't know... I just love the cute dresses and I want to be able to play with my girl's hair...

If I find out that we're having a boy, I will be very happy too! I LOVE Nolan so much, that I know that the sex of the baby won't REALLY matter in the long run. Just as a woman, I kind of hope for those little dresses and cute head bows.

I'm looking forward to being able to use my doppler again for that much needed PgAL reassurance. I probably won't dig that thing out for a while though. At least 9 weeks before I try I think...

After all is over with this pregnancy, assuming everything goes well and baby is healthy, I'm planning on getting rid of the doppler.. maybe donating it to a PgAL'er? Or more realistically, I might sell it on ebay for like $20.

LOOK HOW PREGNANT I AM!